Crucible Part 2

Been some days now and not doing too badly. The E Cigarette is OK, and i've had a few cigars. Still haven't had a smoke. Dropped about 9 lbs already, and my bench press is up 15 pounds, and i'm curling 70+ again. Feeling pretty good. My diet is going good except on Sundays/ Weekends. Otherwise I'm doing alright. I need to take in less noodles and less sodium. If I keep up the noodles I'm going to end up like the dead sea, just not floating.

Yeah it's been over three years and I still think about him daily. I hate him not being here. I hate that he doesn't get to see his grandkids. I hate that he's made my mom into a nervous self doubting wreck. I hate that he's made my mom be so strong. I hate that he's made my wife so angry about his passing. I hate that's he's not here with me to enjoy life.

Crucible Part 1

So its been awhile. I’ve been doing well, love the kids, loving the life. Almost done with the third degree, my Ed.S, should be finished by the summer and ready to try and move up to a school administration position, god willing. Wrestling season looks promising as well.

I’ve been on self improvement journey for a little bit now. Kind of a crucible for myself. Decided I will quit smoking, and lose 35 pounds by December 1^st. doing good so far. Doing ti the old fashioned way, no pills, scripts, support groups, or fancy stuff. Quitting smoking cold turkey with some help from an E-cigarette. Losing weight by wrestling, crushing some iron, and cutting back on the crap food. Mostly trying to eat lean turkey, rice, corn, and noodles. It’s worked in the past we’ll see how it works now.

I feel motivated and I want to do this. God willing. It’s time.