Stile 12

I collapse on my couch, I’m not sure where I am.
I drank to forget, to push away the pain.
I sleep until something stirs, and I put on my masks.
Today I am sober, no matter the cost.

I hurt those around me,
With wicked lies and deception.
I put all I had in life, on the razor’s fine edge
Today I am sober, no matter the cost.

I lied and I stole,
In my private small prison,
I broke the trust of all who believed in me.
Today I am sober, no matter the cost.

To push away the pain so ever present
I closed my eyes and forgot where I came from,
I never saw the signs of what I had become.
Today I am sober, no matter the cost.

I felt like rock bottom,
Like the worst of the worst
I had confessions to tell, with the bottle in my lips.
Today I am sober, no matter the cost.

I closed all my doors, and locked down my prison
I pushed those away, who could help me the most
I drank alone, in darkness and quiet
Today I am sober, no matter the cost.

When all seemed lost,
I prayed on my knees
And asked who I could to give me real strength.
Today I am sober, no matter the cost.

In time I will beg, and ask for forgiveness
In time my amends
Will spew from my eyes.
Today I am sober, no matter the cost.

I have fucked up, I have done wrong
I have given in when it all seemed it’s worst
I have fucked up all of my friendships
Today I am sober, no matter the cost.

I walk down my path, littered with mistakes
I walk down my path, my eyes unclouded
I’ll do what I can, to resist what I am powerless to
Today I am sober, no matter the cost.

I feel in my veins, some life for living
I feel in my heart, some want for it back.
I do as I can, to stay off the bottle
Today I am sober, no matter the cost.